Omg the first time I sucked cock?
Oh, it was a magical moment in my life. I had talked with many phone sex operators and they were all so wonderful with lots of encouragement but nothing prepared me for the emotional turmoil I felt for weeks as I knew I was getting closer and closer to doing it!
I was going out of town and would be staying in a hotel and I decided that I was going to do it. So, there was plenty of time for it to all build up. This was somewhere around the year 2000, and I had just completed six pulsed light treatments on my pubic hair and I was completely bald down there for over six months and when this happened. I really didn’t think I would ever have pubic hair again and felt like I had completely fucked myself in that department, as being shaved or hair free hadn’t taken hold of society yet. In fact, several phone sex operators had tried to talk me out of the treatments as they thought that would be to detrimental if I should change my mind later. They as well as me assumed that my lack of pubic hair would be questioned and leave me completely undesirable.
So anyway, I couldn’t stop myself and I had it done anyway, and for about a year, I didn’t think women were an option any longer, so I had resigned myself that cock was all I would be getting from then on. I hadn’t had sex with anyone for over three years and lost the desire to even attempt conversation with a girl after my first pulsed light treatment. Someone set me up on a blind date after about three treatments and I looked like I was going through puberty again. My pubic hair was real fine and sparse. I went out with her anyway hoping to have a good time but not such a good time that she wanted to have sex. I got my wish, I don’t know if I was sending out a gay vibe or what but she was real cool and I was kind of bummed out. That experience left me feeling like cock was all I was meant to have and six months later, I was making plans to make it reality. I needed some intimacy with somebody and it seemed like a guy was my only option. I didn’t want a boyfriend or anything like that, I just wanted sex, so I started exploring my options. I found several escort agencies that had men for rent.
The strange thing was both places I called the girl that answered the phone sounded like the girl of my dreams. It was so hard to tell them that I was interested in a guy. They did seem quite understanding and accommodating. Both of them had a guy or two that would take me out and to a gay bar, but only one told me about a guy that would top me! I wasn’t sure what that meant and she explained it to me, and I admitted that I wanted him. I had found the place and all I had to do was wait for my trip and call on him.
The day of my trip I called early and made sure he could be available that night. The trip to the city was full of mixed emotions of excitement and anticipation, after all I knew without a doubt I wasn’t going to return home straight. I should have skipped the meeting and just went and got fucked the moment I got into town as that was all I thought about. I was just hours away from becoming officially gay and I was ready for it!
Nervous and full of shame but ready for it none the less. I made the mistake of waiting until I was back in my hotel room so I didn’t have to call from my cell phone. That only added to my wait time and I was so afraid by the time the courier showed up with him. She was to bring him up to my room and collect the money for the encounter but they couldn’t get in without me going down and letting him in. I felt like I was doing the walk of shame as I went to fetch them, but in no time, we were in my room and I was paying her to leave him with she reiterated that he was a top and I had to confirm that I understood what that meant and then she left him to me. Technically on intent alone I was already gay. However, I was there to officially become gay and get fucked physically.
Despite all the thinking and consideration, I’d given it, I was nervous and apprehensive. Sure, I’d lost my virginity with a girl years before, but I was about to lose it all over again, this time with a man. My primary goal was to take a cock up my ass as I thought that would be more pleasing for me. Although I did have a secondary goal, up to this point, I had never had sex without giving my partner oral first, and I didn’t want that to change just because I was going to have sex with a guy. We played around a little touching and feeling each other and soon I knew it was time for me to take him into my mouth. I can’t tell you play by play how it happened, but I can tell you once it was in my mouth, I realized just how impressive the penis really is. The skin is so soft and when wet with precum it is so slippery. I was amazed at how easily it slipped into the mouth and just ike that I was officially gay. So, there I am enjoying all of this soft and tender skin but just underneath is this hard and ridged shaft, throbbing and pulsing in my mouth; leaking precum and slamming my tonsils out of the way from time to time. I was totally unsure of myself taking this gay man’s cock into my mouth. I was afraid that he would cum in my mouth and I would catch something I didn’t want if he did.
My only disappointment is that I didn’t work him over harder and practice more that first time but I was there to get fucked and I was eager for it so my cock sucking adventure ended rather quickly.
I hope you enjoyed this sissy cocksucker experience!
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